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so its the same me, totally not recovering from the depressed state. 

just a slight disappointment, or critics or any other tiny matters cause serious disturbance in mind. i wish i could be staying cool all the time regardless how far the reality has gone beyond my idealized way to live.and now i see myself ugly, from the look to the deepest in heart.

ended up i feel isolated easily and being over-sensitive and harsh often. i dont know if there is a cure out there. can anybody hear my true needs? neither do i.