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Studying is so de-stressing. No emotion involved, just calmness. 

busy days

there's not even enough time to reflect myself, days are gone so speedy and I am losing control. or shouldn't I just let go of controlling, but to enjoy being lost again at the moment. 

too much of promises. too much of commitments. too much of outings. to much of goals. guess its time to let go some of them, so that i have quality time for things and people I really value. its fun to meet different people or to blend in a circle. but that's challenging at the same time, to what extent I can stay true to myself and the others, without being misunderstood. or actually there is no need to be understood. maybe this is the right time to solve my problem of self hatred. seeing myself doing things i want to but dont allow myself to. acceptance from other people may not be as important as i think. 

i know self love is what i need all the time. to accept my flaw with compassion, and only to seek the pure true self in me. need not fear of being judged or misunderstood. (though I hope no matter how you will understand me ).

this is so random i cant even organize my thoughts. well another phase i am going through. this is a state and its not going to be permanent. : )