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为什么要鼓吹第一名呢 ?
为什么要把第一名  解释成光荣和意義呢 ?

世界很大,可做的事很多,为什么要鼓吹
只有極少人能得到,得到了也不代表会幸福的东西 ?

那些第一名,总有一天要面对
不再是第一名的日子.
他们人生目标
被教成第一名是一切,
接下去要如何自处 ?


請别再盲目鼓吹第一名了。

取自蔡康永的博客。举手举脚赞同。其实还有更多。你们去点一点列在旁边的链接啦。


-- 想要学的东西越来越多。不行不行。我必须要逐一征服。
    学习学习再学习，向上向上再向上。 --

给自己

选择路径时，猜想没有一条好走。走着的时候，却发觉其实并没有很难走。走过了以后，又在想从前是怎么走过来的。

矛盾的人很多。但我相信每个人心里都有着自己想要的答案，却老是惧怕被反对，被唾弃，被排斥，被遗忘，怕得最后认不清自己。所以，无谓再花时间衡量值不值得的问题。每一种结果都是你自己编排好的结局。不要怪别人，不要怪老天，更不要怪命运。

过日子就好像做手工一样。用现成而有限的材料，想尽办法作出最精致的成品。总是会失败的，大不了改一改方法，改一改想法。在错误的点上，重新用当下的资源计划另一个起点。

我犯了个一直在比较的错误。所以时时刻刻挂在心上老是不开心。经人开解以后，再暗自思考，终于接纳所有的从前和现在。其实不需要想那么多。尽力地过每一天就好了。

我嘛，天生就是要被爸爸妈妈和魔鬼疼爱的小孩。还有什么需要囧的。^^

i might be changing a lot. do you think so?

blogging is no longer my way of spitting thoughts and feelings anymore. i am not sure, simply feeling less comfortable to express self like i used to be. personally, i guess self expressing is considered one of my ability, and i dont want to lose it.

well, things get different since i have settled down in this country. i have mild home-sick, yet i love my life here. there is a lot of new and fresh things to experience, where i never thought of these can be ideas of how and where i want to be in the future. nevertheless, its the first time i find it hard to believe anyone here. people are seemingly treating you very good, with compliments and presents, but you dont know if its by courtesy. well, luckily i am not meant to make friends here. and i am going to hold my principle tight, where i can only feel thankful to those who treat me good, and thats all. nothing worth grateful about here..

i were one of those who have clear direction for the future, not until those days where i lost my ability to manage myself. and i am glad that the old me has come back, with confidence.  so i have a very clear mind to think, to analyze, to plan. but too bad, i cant really feel these days. i admit i have very blissful days here, yet it feels like something being suppressed, and i cant really tell. sorry devil. you are trying your best to cheer me up everyday. i know, and i can see it.

generally, yea, i am good, except missing my parents and friends, and food in malaysia so much. except i have less quality time for myself, to do some art stuffs, to write something, to think nonsense.

by the way, i found my music here. its happy to see yourself improving, dont you? =)

*something worth to highlight here. its STITCH. you can see this cuddle-able  blue little monster elsewhere. devil is afraid to see it. cause we spent quite a lot to buy it.

*and my hair is much longer now. i can tight a long curvy pony tail already.  

friends, might not be updating my blog too often. sometimes i am busy, sometimes i am lazy, and sometimes when i am not busy and lazy, the internet connection here collapse. blah.

算来是有一段日子没写些什么的。脑子理性得要命，根本来不及有什么心情。

不过

日子总是忙碌，却心情无论如何一定大好。