i might be changing a lot. do you think so?

blogging is no longer my way of spitting thoughts and feelings anymore. i am not sure, simply feeling less comfortable to express self like i used to be. personally, i guess self expressing is considered one of my ability, and i dont want to lose it.

well, things get different since i have settled down in this country. i have mild home-sick, yet i love my life here. there is a lot of new and fresh things to experience, where i never thought of these can be ideas of how and where i want to be in the future. nevertheless, its the first time i find it hard to believe anyone here. people are seemingly treating you very good, with compliments and presents, but you dont know if its by courtesy. well, luckily i am not meant to make friends here. and i am going to hold my principle tight, where i can only feel thankful to those who treat me good, and thats all. nothing worth grateful about here..

i were one of those who have clear direction for the future, not until those days where i lost my ability to manage myself. and i am glad that the old me has come back, with confidence.  so i have a very clear mind to think, to analyze, to plan. but too bad, i cant really feel these days. i admit i have very blissful days here, yet it feels like something being suppressed, and i cant really tell. sorry devil. you are trying your best to cheer me up everyday. i know, and i can see it.

generally, yea, i am good, except missing my parents and friends, and food in malaysia so much. except i have less quality time for myself, to do some art stuffs, to write something, to think nonsense.

by the way, i found my music here. its happy to see yourself improving, dont you? =)

*something worth to highlight here. its STITCH. you can see this cuddle-able  blue little monster elsewhere. devil is afraid to see it. cause we spent quite a lot to buy it.

*and my hair is much longer now. i can tight a long curvy pony tail already.  

friends, might not be updating my blog too often. sometimes i am busy, sometimes i am lazy, and sometimes when i am not busy and lazy, the internet connection here collapse. blah.