oh finally i get to play the piano accompaniment on Spring Sonata by Beethoven , for the violin. so exciting and cant wait to receive the score from the violinist. and Brahms's Hungarian Dance, no.5 , hmmp. I am not so fond to Brahms anyway.
Playing music with other instruments never fail to make me excited and happy.
study life, and its coming to the end. =)
since not long ago i was hoping for the moment fyp is completed, now i am worrying how to get through the communication law exam tomorrow. come on, just few chapters to go, few case laws to go, few hours to go. wake up! wake up!!!
我狠狠地承诺
过去两天把该哭都哭完了，该闹的都闹完了，该问的也问完了，该说的也都说完了。一切明了，心可能还会隐隐作痛，但希望往后真能不再执著。若再是不懂得信任和珍惜你的好，我决定放手。这是我给自己的最后一次机会。失去了的痛苦，才足以惩罚自己那样对你。
AV3
i never mention my classmates after all. might have too little memory about them, still, there is something worth remembering. like those who are always willing to help, and outings with a big group of them occasionally. a few are indeed friends who never calculates, though friendship with them might not long lasting, at least i get to know these good people. bid goodbye to AV3 in advance. hope everyone done well in final, which is the very last chance to fight for future.
深陷
每个人的心里深处都可以藏着一些很隐秘的想法。我就害怕这样。所以我想知道。我都想知道。但就算说出口了，又凭什么相信。有谁可以绝对坦白的面对自己和别人。谁。我曾经信任。往往怀疑总比信任的好。其实，怎样也比不上不知不觉。但是我聪明还是你愚蠢。为什么无法让我不知道。
累了厌了倦了 我不要了 可以吗
拥有了就更害怕失去。
累了厌了倦了 我不要了 可以吗
拥有了就更害怕失去。
呸
把一个不断利用人的人当朋友，还要内疚个屁。我自然生气。但也只能生个闷气。一个愿打一个愿挨，旁人也不好说什么，说了只让人觉得多管闲事。只是觉得，纵使朋友是要来利用的，但也适可而止，别欺人太甚。这样使来唤去的，对人公平吗？好歹做个佣人都胜过任你使唤，至少付出的都不是白做。
心
感情总是脆弱又出奇的坚韧。该怎么说呢。嫉妒耗了我三成的生命，焦虑另外三成。喜悦两成，仇恨一成，自卑一成。所以我不信任，想要什么都在操控之中。安全感是别人给不到的感觉，所以怪罪谁都不对。我不信任的不是任何人，是人心。因为我是这样的成长过来。
说回来，明明所有都还好好的，共同坚持了这么久也是很难得的，毕竟波折可不是少，风浪也不算小。到底因为年轻承诺始终飘渺。像雾一样美，像烟一样容易散。什么可以证明永不渝的情，什么可以换彼此一生的相依。一生这词儿，都么伟大，老实又可靠。
其实我最相信的，连自己都不是。
说回来，明明所有都还好好的，共同坚持了这么久也是很难得的，毕竟波折可不是少，风浪也不算小。到底因为年轻承诺始终飘渺。像雾一样美，像烟一样容易散。什么可以证明永不渝的情，什么可以换彼此一生的相依。一生这词儿，都么伟大，老实又可靠。
其实我最相信的，连自己都不是。
我不过需要勇气
毕业在即，大家忙着感触。我忙着忧虑。日日夜夜在思量，心情沉重得难以负荷。预想那座城市会让我更加忧郁。但我决定去了，就不许退缩。然谁能告知我该带什么过去，留什么下来。丝丝牵挂让我愁上加愁，牵挂里又参杂更多不安与恐惧。今后什么模样他日得知我又会如何。天。我多么多么不想再踏前一步。可分秒流失间我曾蹉跎不少，在悲伤，在挣扎，而今我应当奋勇地挑起过生活的责任，一步步向前，一天天把好日子带回家里。
怎的还这样放任自己。其实，很多时候我还不懂自己在争取着什么。似乎得失这一课，不容易修。
怎的还这样放任自己。其实，很多时候我还不懂自己在争取着什么。似乎得失这一课，不容易修。
cheers a little
devil and i are both unhappy for own reason.
we can go for an outing. or to sing-k or to play badminton. and maybe something sweet will do. like caramel ice-cream, or creme bure in mid valley. yes, we can. to cheer up ourselves.
and there is one good news, where my two robos have another litter of robo pups for themselves, and me. =) i am already a grandma of 6. haha.
we can go for an outing. or to sing-k or to play badminton. and maybe something sweet will do. like caramel ice-cream, or creme bure in mid valley. yes, we can. to cheer up ourselves.
and there is one good news, where my two robos have another litter of robo pups for themselves, and me. =) i am already a grandma of 6. haha.
days after fyp
things stuffed randomly in my head.
i might have done badly in fyp, anyway its over and worth to be happy. but how am i going to graduate with such grade, so average or even lower than that. and i went to job fair today without any confidence, which is very not like me. positions are just there to be applied. but why am i feeling so inferior to step forward for inquiry. i bet i look foolish that time. people concerning about the first impression, and there i stood still with a dump-looking. and if you dont look presentable, at least, a good communication skill will cover up all, but i speak timidly, worse in english. i will be graduate in less than a month. yet still speak english poorly, fail to make myself presentable, and the worst, not prepared with any skill that is sufficient to get a simple job. i am panicking yet dad is expecting high on me, telling me i have to prepare this and that as if i dont need time for final exam. well i know he cares, but who knows i need some space spare for myself.
i have handicapped personality in nature and feeling scare to move on too often. too much of pressure cause me wanted to give up. it is not me anymore, who used to be strong and determine in solving any problem. now i have a resignation letter to write, plus cv and resume. shall i start off with these, and let the unknown be.
i might have done badly in fyp, anyway its over and worth to be happy. but how am i going to graduate with such grade, so average or even lower than that. and i went to job fair today without any confidence, which is very not like me. positions are just there to be applied. but why am i feeling so inferior to step forward for inquiry. i bet i look foolish that time. people concerning about the first impression, and there i stood still with a dump-looking. and if you dont look presentable, at least, a good communication skill will cover up all, but i speak timidly, worse in english. i will be graduate in less than a month. yet still speak english poorly, fail to make myself presentable, and the worst, not prepared with any skill that is sufficient to get a simple job. i am panicking yet dad is expecting high on me, telling me i have to prepare this and that as if i dont need time for final exam. well i know he cares, but who knows i need some space spare for myself.
i have handicapped personality in nature and feeling scare to move on too often. too much of pressure cause me wanted to give up. it is not me anymore, who used to be strong and determine in solving any problem. now i have a resignation letter to write, plus cv and resume. shall i start off with these, and let the unknown be.
诠释心魔
我讨厌你的存在更憎恨自己莫名其妙的出现 就因为知道是自己错了也显出你更好了好吧我偷偷地不甘心偷偷地很内疚偷偷地把把自己的无地自容都变成对你的仇恨 我想摆脱目前的形象和你比起来我特别丑陋特别小气特别讨厌 像 小丑一样演着独角戏但你明明真的不存在了为什么老在我心里萦绕 该说 远离我一点好吗 再远一点远一点再远一点 噢 我知道在天涯海角我都忘不了你忘不了你给我的心铐上的枷锁（或者说是我自己铐上的）
我想要一点点的支持 无理地支持我无理的一切 因为我不像你没人会给我说话 好好承认我的错是应该的 然后 我就会知道自己错得不应该
4 years ago
i have picked a classic out of classics
i laugh non-stop after reading this. i was so funny and cute that time. haha. if you wish to have some laugh, read this,"my blog". my very first blog. =)
....zzz.....really a nice sleep yeaterday…zzz…got a headache tat i couldnt really hear wats my mummy talkin…slept at 2035 n by d time i awake, haha, 2day 0400 liao… …em…0400…still a wondeful hr…silent…peace…i run thru my comp. studies tutorial…at least tham cs later on wont scold again ma…he is quite pitiful de…HAHAHAHA…0630, have 2 go 4 d bus liao…i hate dis hr bus…alwez full of ppls n i become d sardine liao…n their perfume, make me fainted really….ok ok times up again…Introduction 2 art lecture…haih…
i laugh non-stop after reading this. i was so funny and cute that time. haha. if you wish to have some laugh, read this,
positive statement
just a few days ago i felt like not moving on and laid back. but its darn glad that my passion is back. i have great things to do. i have great life to live. of course its not now, not in such hectic moments. ha. there are a few people out there whom i think as model. i like the way they live. so contented and colorful, so couraging and amazing, so meaningful and positive.
it was dangerous to live in sorrow that i could have ruined my life as well as others. you just couldnt understand how sad i was unless you were me. i met counsellors, tried looking for psychiatrist, and yet, it was not these that helped me happy once more. companion and understanding from those who care for me, were indeed helping a lot. of course not to forget my own effort to stand up again. although it took me years to get myself slightly normal again, i am still grateful that i progress this well.
i often bet (but not gamble). and enjoy revealing unknown. =)
it was dangerous to live in sorrow that i could have ruined my life as well as others. you just couldnt understand how sad i was unless you were me. i met counsellors, tried looking for psychiatrist, and yet, it was not these that helped me happy once more. companion and understanding from those who care for me, were indeed helping a lot. of course not to forget my own effort to stand up again. although it took me years to get myself slightly normal again, i am still grateful that i progress this well.
i often bet (but not gamble). and enjoy revealing unknown. =)
the world is full of love
i ended up fail to pass up the first draft in time. but its touching when i was so desperately in need of help and so aggressively asking for help, a few of you, helped.
for those who constantly updates my fyp and offer help always at the perfect time
for those who actually did the whole chapter of my fyp
for those who spammed others fb n msn on my behalf
for those who looked for journals for me
for those who have done my survey
for those who sincerely replied my help
i am grateful to have you.
for those who constantly updates my fyp and offer help always at the perfect time
for those who actually did the whole chapter of my fyp
for those who spammed others fb n msn on my behalf
for those who looked for journals for me
for those who have done my survey
for those who sincerely replied my help
i am grateful to have you.
S.O.S
Friends, I am conducting a survey for my FYP due tomorrow. Can you kindly complete this questionnaire for me and my friend. I need 100 responses by tonight. *Sigh*. So if you have time, and is not annoyed by my questions, can you please do more than one time pretending you are different respondent?
The Study of Brand Equity in the context of Soft Drink Industry
and this is my friend's survey:
The Effectiveness of Billboard Advertising in Malaysia and How do the public perceive and process P1 WiMax billboard advertisement
Please, please help. We need help!!! T_T
The Study of Brand Equity in the context of Soft Drink Industry
and this is my friend's survey:
The Effectiveness of Billboard Advertising in Malaysia and How do the public perceive and process P1 WiMax billboard advertisement
Please, please help. We need help!!! T_T
friday
visited yunn in sungai long utar this afternoon with devil. well, i actually went there for the FYP's source, not really for her. haha. but i am really grateful for yunn's sincere help on my work and the laughter she brought me the whole noon.
it was a pleasant trip despite long waiting for the ktm on the way home. i never know that utar has this nice building and equipped with a library that is soooooo suitable for reading and studying. how good if i were to study in such beautiful and quiet place.
stopped by mid valley after that and had a wonderful meal of grilled sambal fish and sotong, entailed by a cup of iced coffee from gloria jeans. and never to forget the ice cream and cinnamon bread bought for my supper. thats definitely cause me obesity soon.
there was a little moment when i was waiting the ktm by the sunset, something creeps in my heart and made me depressed all of a sudden.
by the way, got myself a new racket, white color with royal blue string. thinking to exercise after completed all assignments.
p.s. currently practicing english writing. but i still love to write in chinese. =)
it was a pleasant trip despite long waiting for the ktm on the way home. i never know that utar has this nice building and equipped with a library that is soooooo suitable for reading and studying. how good if i were to study in such beautiful and quiet place.
stopped by mid valley after that and had a wonderful meal of grilled sambal fish and sotong, entailed by a cup of iced coffee from gloria jeans. and never to forget the ice cream and cinnamon bread bought for my supper. thats definitely cause me obesity soon.
there was a little moment when i was waiting the ktm by the sunset, something creeps in my heart and made me depressed all of a sudden.
by the way, got myself a new racket, white color with royal blue string. thinking to exercise after completed all assignments.
p.s. currently practicing english writing. but i still love to write in chinese. =)
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