days after fyp

things stuffed randomly in my head.

i might have done badly in fyp, anyway its over and worth to be happy. but how am i going to graduate with such grade, so average or even lower than that. and i went to job fair today without any confidence, which is very not like me. positions are just there to be applied. but why am i feeling so inferior to step forward for inquiry. i bet i look foolish that time. people concerning about the first impression, and there i stood still with a dump-looking. and if you dont look presentable, at least, a good communication skill will cover up all, but i speak timidly, worse in english. i will be graduate in less than a month. yet still speak english poorly, fail to make myself presentable, and the worst, not prepared with any skill that is sufficient to get a simple job. i am panicking yet dad is expecting high on me, telling me i have to prepare this and that as if i dont need time for final exam. well i know he cares, but who knows i need some space spare for myself.

i have handicapped personality in nature and feeling scare to move on too often. too much of pressure cause me wanted to give up. it is not me anymore, who used to be strong and determine in solving any problem. now i have a resignation letter to write, plus cv and resume. shall i start off with these, and let the unknown be.