it's another year of filling the gap of contradiction

if methodical and vigorous studies were to be seen as attachment, how much courage do I have to let go of them. while i hope to totally embrace what i believe in, it somehow contradicts with my societal role that needs my constant effort to accomplish more. or am i actually blinded by biases that i am unaware of. 

To the sel(ves),

please reconcile with each other one day, so that I (we) am not too far from the bliss of inner peace.