Fight

Just because I care, so I want to be perfect. But there's no perfection. And when I care too much, everything falls apart. I know it's about ego and fear again. Almost root for every flaws.
Regrets and guilt are just unhelpful burdens. But I can't help judging myself for every words I have said and every decisions I have made. Where is the self compassion I have learnt. I should know that the past me doesn't define the real me.

This endless struggle shall stop. I just want to be the self that I truly adore.

Ok. I know this is just one of the phases I'm going thru. Things will be fine. Its always one step closer to achieving Zen mind after the lower times. I guess each transformation and transition are always hard times but meaningful moments.